4.11.2009
I AM BACK!!to my blogging and also from overseas training!!! pray BCU for the 23rd let's go!!!The training was neurotic and emotional, i felt like a family for split seconds when evryone cheered at the end of frame dinner.....sadly we did not go to the 'promised' land but nevertheless photos taken just check out my facebook acc yeah?
I learn lotsa things from the trip, but its really complicated anyways. One of the most important thing i learnt was the people who will always be there for me=) FAMILY.....the utmost impotant thing in my life, though not usually what a army dude would say. There are really times when u would fall and wished u could just lie there. These are the times u think about those important to u and u stand strong just so u know how proud of u the are at home. haha enough for the emo talk, came back with a shit allergy reaction, can't party can't do shit actually. Was really glad it happened at home anyways, so i have ppl to take care of me=) yawnsssss tired and bored=_=
i'm seriously a freaking random dude
15:43
; where did I go wrong?.
12.21.2008
Last week was busy busy!!!!lucky the outfield was not so tiring=_= but Glen was gone so i had to do work=( people calling my name like evry 20 mins, its totally screwed up Wellcan't wait for xmas, need time togo shopping but i dun want to go alone...well the bridge is straight at the end of the road=)But after a hedious week, FRIDAY came!!weeeee so we rushed home and chiong to clark quay to visit the new club rebel.
To our super duper surprise, there was no one inside!!ARHHHHH tt was what we tot at 1st but later the crowd just keeps coming in, phew. And the music was so good , YES!better than phuture like thousand times?
CLiff's da boss, love him!!haha
went to MAC for hotcakes, by then all of them high le look at the wasted fella on the left hahaha
21:27
; where did I go wrong?.
11.02.2008
SO many things to say but somehow the things i say just doesnt make sense at all.....
1st, this blog gonna die le cos life's jus to boring to tell anyone about it=_=its just my public journal now(contradiction to the max)
9 days break pass in a blink of an eye, well its undeniably painful but life sucks and we have to suck it up=)too bad...9 days jus go out only and slack at home it was good...haha but kinda scary cos felt like i would grow fat again after ORD.....MUST WORK OUT!!!!
Very emo now, cos tml booking in le and i realise humans are stupid beings cos they give themselve hope so that it can be destroyed....人就是那么犯贱！！哈哈and i happen to be one too
these few days there are some events which made me realise alot of things, sad things and also life goes on even though when things seem to be alwas going the wrong direction...OH OH and also happiness can be found in the smallest and most insignificant activity that u may not realise and its happening around u.....a call from someone, a little bit more concern from ur parents and not superficial things but emotionally cos we need these little bit of emotional happiness to move on in life, hmm i can't really express what i want to say but if someone can understand then thank u!!!
Some things came unexpected and it was sad....i hope he has gone to a place where he can find solace. I understand his pain just like it was my own, the feeling of being cornered to a extent you cannot breath...it was unexplainable but i felt his pain and tears jus came so suddenly but he was less fortunate he din had the support i had and it forced him to make a selfish decision....
After all that i said, i am still not perfect just a flawed human with discrimination towards things that are just not of my liking=_= cos we all are, we realise things but somehow we dun have the strength to change things in our heart...hmmmm i feel like i am talking jibberish..AHHHHH
haiz, the only happy thing was, the angelic glance we received..haha chester should noe...PLEASE IT WAS ME!!!!!haha and jp billy bombers got pretty waiters!!!:Pshe only works on weekends i think?i din stalk her its just tt jp is lk 5 mins away from home and i need to buy food for myself right????AND i need a gf, just like the 'angel' we saw today(her bf is one lucky shit if she has one unless she is just one big toot) but well mayb she was looking cos of our disgusting short hair and was thinking in her mind what stupid ass we look like....but i prefer to look on the BRIGHT side=)Luckily my hair is growing, I DIE ALSO DUN WANNA CUT BEFORE red beret presentation...on the way home today i felt like i was the ATWC(attract the wrong crowd) gang and i just not what jie and others always say i am.....please dun ask me wat i meant in this sentence cos i wun entertain u=_=i am just not suited for there, f***k my luck man, its the worst especially when it comes to..........................................all i want now is to get beret, get an 'angel' gf hahah and save more money and pass driving=)))))
tired,sleep for now so tml will be a new day for me to suck life up.....it feels great to be alive yet annoying to face life's daily dosage of reality........even world's richest man's life isn't perfect!!!
04:13
; where did I go wrong?.
10.12.2008
normal mundane life...yawn~~~
house bunny was really funny=D guys would appreciate it more..hahaha
yayz got bonus for gold, woo the best part is the earlier book out part love it totally
but when i get out life is jus plain boring la.....
back to camp=(
18:50
; where did I go wrong?.
10.02.2008
HELLO!!!i am back=)brunei was a s**thole, and i hope i never need to be back der again.Training process was tough, did things i never thought i would do and i surely don't want to do again...well they said it was confidential so cannot say much....well i SURVIVED and proud to say din fall out once, even though i tot of falling out lk thousand times.
Sun was nice had a nice bdae cake, super oreo cheese cake from a very high class cake shop in taka....
it was delicious!!!
bdae boy!!
family...
mum=)
sibs..haha
then mon went on a shopping spree!!!!haha nt tt zi lian to take pics of myself in dressing room so no pics...went to buffet aft tt my stomach nearly burst
see for urself....
this was jus round 1, we had 3 rounds, i think?
ALL HAIL THE SASHIMI EATING KING
this dude loves sashimi ALOt!!!
well it was a fruitful day , shopped alot but was fucking sad when i look into my walllet at the end of the day=_=1st time i bought zara clothes, its a nice place for me cos the clothes suit me alot=)new shopping store
*DRUM ROLL*then came WEDNESDAY, and wed= MAMBO/ladies night!!tt was how i felt before i went, adrenaline and excitement....but things changed when i went it was pure boredom, like wtf?!it was bad~
anyw despite i still had a little tiny bit of fun
what guys do with citibank credit cards, but i din drink it was the other grp of guys that went with us...they can drink man i tell u
Last but not least, end the entry with a picture=)and have to go back to camp today, back to a routine life=_=
my dudes.... COMMANDOS
-need to save
-need my hair
-need to have my driver's license
-need to start a portfolio for uni
-need get out of army
-need to be happy
1 more mth to beret, i have finally come so close....
15:03
; where did I go wrong?.
8.30.2008
MOS IS THE WORST EVER,and i am never gonna go back der again.....bad music, bad crowd and bad atmosphere and i emphasize the music is fucking lousy!!!!!!!!!!!worst clubbing experience it was like a total nightmare=_=so shagged from the boredom that i came home earlier lik 2 hours....................
well wateva today shopping experience was ok la but i enjoyed the company of my 2 buds...=)
this weekend was abit fucked up=( 2nd last week b4 i go brunei...i am scared really scared.
I tink abt it and i don't know whether i have the strength to face the path that awaits me.....i don't want to break down cos its too late for me. I can't back down now le, if i do all my blood and sweat would be wasted......
where can i seek solace in? i wonder...........
03:20
; where did I go wrong?.
8.23.2008
EX ALL OUT is over finally, and after that is the brunei trip...=_= and 'the man' says ex all out is lk the tip of the iceberg compared to BRUNEI. Well it 'helps' alot hearing this, thanks.
well whatever, chiong out of camp ytday night to go clubbing!!!BUT zouk gt a event and no one got in, so after a a few detours we made our way to MOS unwillingly....it was ok mayb cos all the ppl tt was supposed to go zouk came MOS in the end...it was worth the trip anyway, hehe=)i had loads of fun.
Never thought i would love clubbing, used to be the 'boy at home'. NS changed me...alot.
It gave me strength , confidence and 1 time good time endless sufferings.Dunno how to described it, well it gives a very very very good 'kick' after u have passed through evrything=)Aft 1 round of cock, i am jus saying it chged me to someone i dunno whether its good or bad....
well at field camp last week, chester made me think of someone ...sometimes she jus appears but i dunno wat i feel sia....i jus feel lk toking to her, mayb bcos she sees hw much i have chged tts y she also afraid of me le. The army dudes oso said i chged alot, but i noe somehow i am still me la, just tt i din have the chance to bring my inner self out last time.
well, reward is damn sweet, but only its a result of hard work
05:31
; where did I go wrong?.