6.26.2006

hlohlo i realised my blog is so depressed as told by jia wei to me....HAPPY B'DAE JW jus in case u gt read my blog!!!!hmm mayb i shall nt alwas blog abt depressing 'me' but instead let's tok abt issues!!!!

HEADLINES: 'CHINA PPL ARE TAKING OVER S'PORE O.o'
its lk evry wer i see them there are soo many chinese ppl ! in s'pore they are taking over our jobs making the students stress cos they have better results n many many other roles in lifes!!!!its nt that i m baised or wat but its lk s'pore is becoming china!!!!why can't chinese at china get a life der mus they b here fighting lk hell with us? i tink eventually s'poreans will have little children who grow up lk china chinese !!!!!and i tell u some of these china chinese (let's call them CC) are rlly damn proud loh...bliv me i hav met some and some are lk soooo stingy tt they can lk act shock when the price of something is 10 cents more expensive....wats the purpose of eating this way? might as well go beg frm ppl!!!its good practice to save but pls think of the good things that 10 cents more expensive thing could bring u !!!!!

tts all i have to say .......all comments are only for the viewing for ppl who see my blog they are nt meant to directly 'shoot' anybody ...thk u....

AND hor although i am nt tt fashionable, but i have come to realise hor nowadays teens dun dress up themselve!!!its for ur own good! its not like u r telling ppl 'i m a vain ass that's y i dress up!'its lk for the sake of god!!! is lk u noe we shuld enjog life while we can in our 17teens n below b as vain n at the same time get good results.....its nt tt u dun have a sense of style its whther u wan to have that sense of style......and its lk u see those sec 2 boys n gals who tuck their t shirts all the way in.....thinking they look smart, as if. its lk we are teens give us a break look smart? thats when u wan to get a job!!!!parents should lk teach their kids hw to make their own choices nt lk even controlling them n making ur kids look lk the mini versions of u!! haiz mayb all these teenagers jus wan to study n get good jobs well its jus my opinion its up to u how u wan live ur life!!!!

another thing is my message to 12j ppl ! come on ppl dun slack leh pur class de results is lk sux of cos i oso slack too...haha so lets motivate each another !!!!!all the best to the exams all u 12j ppl who read my blog........

19:03

; where did I go wrong?.

6.24.2006

i feeling vry fustrated recently....sddnly i am more hot tempered then usual i am hot hot tempered! i cannot concentrate on evrything i m no difference from a guy who has no future, i dunno wat i want in life rlly want quit jc n jus go somewhere esle study something i rlly love~
but i lack courage i dun have enuff courage to leave evrything n start over agin.....

seriously i m nt tt likeable person , my family no matter wat happen they are alwas der seriously i m happy to have a family who is behind me all the way even though i m a jerk sometimes to them. i sometimes tink having a gf means i have someone to share n it would b a beautiful experience, but wat i m seeing now frm others is lk its a better choice to nt hav one......its lk unless love is 2 sided n both parites are understanding, but i still desire one jus one heart break mayb ...lol i m such a sick guy

u noe mayb wat i m looking for in life is release, release frm the restrains of life but its nt possible. cos if i dun study i cannot carve out a future for myself , if i dun have a career i wun have money.....i need someone or jus something to enlighten me, are u the one?haha but life is nt tt tough considering i am 17 n i m a slacker haha

sometimes ppl dun rlly see me as who i rlly wan them to.....yes i m sometimes a bad person who say bad things mayb most of the times! no one rlly understand the real me, no one can jus lk i cannt understand the the real u who is reading my blog nw......pls forgive me for nt letting u in to my thoughts....

today went dinner with my family, dunno y sddnly have tension over a topic.. den my sister sddnly say i m lk my dad, and my family alwas say tt cos my chinese n el horoscope is exactly the same as my dad, i was lk sddnly so angry tt i slam the chopsticks n said dun compare me with dad bcos i have the same horoscope loh....i oso dun noe y i jus sddnly feel supa pissed!!!!!!!!!
my dad is lk when i helping him at his stall he lk alwas scold me wan loh then oni when nt working then tok nicely to me.....so i rlly dun feel uncomfortable this way loh n i hate the personality of my dAd so i dun wan b lk him!!!but i oso hate myself i gues nt evryone love life , i rlly hate myself for being the person i am................

22:59

; where did I go wrong?.

6.21.2006

here to blog!!!!!!!!!! hlo evrybody~
honestly its too late to study now but i m still slacking ...wth i m alwas the old procratinating me!these days been downloading music....the veronicas, rihanna, the all american reject n teddy geiger these are all good music MAN! n omg christina aguilera's new song ain't no other man is lk totally SICK!!! i find it vry nice check it out~ n shakira's hips dun lie video is jus so sexy rit? don't u think so???? jus music these holidays n stayin at home wasting my future away! if i rlly retain i seriously will go poly or mayb go abroad to a cuilinary sch den mayb few years later the posh restaurant u so want to go is actually owned by me!!!!!!! but these are dreams, n i m scared i bcom those 1 mth earn 3000 n lk work the rest of my life for my children....i dun wan to be tt kind of guy!!!i wan b those 35 yrs old i m still living life~ as in at least a career in my passion! JC is jus uber bull shit for me la............sddnly i realise this is the period of my life so imp! its make or break , if i dun go uni den life willl be lk fucked up man......i m jus lazy lazy lazy i know it but i dun solve it man! is lk i so hope i m lk a football star or mayb a basketball star u know lk i play all day to earn money n have a model wife haha life will be lk better then nw!haha dreams i tink sometimes they are jus things we think of to escape from the reality tt our present life is partially a failure.....so tts it...lalalalalala

16:24

; where did I go wrong?.

6.15.2006

i der is nth lk rlly exciting or something worth to be happy of in my life...tts y my blog is lk the blog of a depressed youngster, mayb a partial depressed youngster... n the tests are comin aft the holidays i mean lk its crap!!!!!!i cnnt even overcome procrastination during holidays, hw the hell can i pass my exams.....man i nv wan my children to be ever lk me!!! holidays are lk boring , cos of the low cash n the tot of exams is totally irritating....i wish evryday life is changing u noe lk more then gg jc study more things more new frens...its lk if evryday i had a new experience live would be perfect i mean lk more good experiences then bad one ...but i m sure i m learning in jc whether in academic terms or perspectives of life .....
haiz see its jus another boring blog for those ppl who care to browse my blog(thk u )to help u past ur time.....bye~

18:15

; where did I go wrong?.

6.14.2006

recently found out my pri sch mates still hang with each another....its kinda sad tt i dun keep in contact with them T.T but at least they rmb i m their pri sch mate n added me on frenster....can't bliv hw time pass nw all those gals in my pri sch class have grown so PRETTY!!!!lol nw i feel guilty cos sometimes i see them outside, but i nv lk tok to them....its all my fault i gues
the bonds of frenship i hav dun withstand time, i cannot blame anyone esle cos during my pri n sec sch days i wasn't those who treasure frenship.....
my life is so emotionally unstable now....reality is harsh n truth is heart breaking!! its still all the same i m nt a fren who can make a impact in the lives of my frens....i m still the guy tt is only remembered by my name......all the things tt are happening , am i being too sensitive am i wrong to be trying to make evrything go my way.......i gues there is no way tt things can go my way!!!the misery in my heart cannot b expressed with words, i only wish i could scream it all out!!!!!!!!!!!!! summer test its on its way , JC LIFE SUX COS OF TEST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!phy chem n econs n PW are killers i haven been working hard the way i need to be in jc.....damn it!!!!as they say a leopard nv changes its spot....i guess i will nv chg the person i hate so much, which is myself...................

01:59

; where did I go wrong?.

6.05.2006

chalet ended in a blink of an eye....it was a memorable one with abit of bad moments.....
we did played much outdoor games at the chalet alot of ppl didnt went for the chalet which was sad...and we stay in the chalet alot and played ps2 or pocker which was somewat a waste of time.......... rlly sad tt so many classmates could not turn up whereas some didnt have the heart to go...but i was happy to share the moments with those who were der.....

1st day~~
dunno how somewat we gt invovled in a tv show hosted by belinda....it was exciting at first but the filming was so long tt it took most our fun time the 1st day....by the time we reached chalet it was alrdy 4 sumthing....and filming took place wer belinda n li teng(superhost contestant)played captains ball with us then it ended...was pissed off cos it wasted alot of our time...but the funtime with belind the pretty gal was sooooo nice!!!!and we took photos aft tt a memorable experience though...loved it!!first day was fun had bbq n played pool at nit....

2nd day~~
2nd day came so fast and most of the ppl who came had to go....sad case wor...so it was oni left me shawn 1 n shawn 2 enrico tabby qiu sheng wei and jw,we had fun wor...we slacked at the chalet playing ps2 n poker n we shopped at tampines mall.....then later went to the beach for touch rugby with a soccer ball totally stupid...haha n then captains balll.....n dennnnn it was time for macdonalds delivery!!!!!aft tt slack at chalet gin then went night bowling and some pool agin...haha and den we slept

3rd day~~~
finally it was time to go but i didnt want it to end.....on our way bac we sddnly taking photos haha taking n taking until we reached orchard , by then oni me qiu sw n tabby n enrico left...
so we went cineleisure to eat subway n watch a movie 'she's the man' it was a funny show nice show but we went to take neoprint before the movie....
it was toally crazy as we had to chg posture within a freaking short time.....it became so fun tt qiu kept screaming i oso shouting 'oi chg position kuai dian kuai dian'haha it was so nice tt i will keep it in my heart alwas.....

but i rlly felt abit wasted cos of the ppl who didnt turn up and the classmates who had to go....oso tt we stayed in chalet most of the times and we didnt lk get hype enuff to make it a even better experince before we went home......nvm we wuld have one in dec and this time it will surely b great....
oh ya and the night sky at our chalet was a gift to all of us der it was so beautiful!!!

THESE ARE THE MEMORIES THAT WILL NEVER FADE....ENJOY