11.02.2008
SO many things to say but somehow the things i say just doesnt make sense at all.....
1st, this blog gonna die le cos life's jus to boring to tell anyone about it=_=its just my public journal now(contradiction to the max)
9 days break pass in a blink of an eye, well its undeniably painful but life sucks and we have to suck it up=)too bad...9 days jus go out only and slack at home it was good...haha but kinda scary cos felt like i would grow fat again after ORD.....MUST WORK OUT!!!!
Very emo now, cos tml booking in le and i realise humans are stupid beings cos they give themselve hope so that it can be destroyed....人就是那么犯贱！！哈哈and i happen to be one too
these few days there are some events which made me realise alot of things, sad things and also life goes on even though when things seem to be alwas going the wrong direction...OH OH and also happiness can be found in the smallest and most insignificant activity that u may not realise and its happening around u.....a call from someone, a little bit more concern from ur parents and not superficial things but emotionally cos we need these little bit of emotional happiness to move on in life, hmm i can't really express what i want to say but if someone can understand then thank u!!!
Some things came unexpected and it was sad....i hope he has gone to a place where he can find solace. I understand his pain just like it was my own, the feeling of being cornered to a extent you cannot breath...it was unexplainable but i felt his pain and tears jus came so suddenly but he was less fortunate he din had the support i had and it forced him to make a selfish decision....
After all that i said, i am still not perfect just a flawed human with discrimination towards things that are just not of my liking=_= cos we all are, we realise things but somehow we dun have the strength to change things in our heart...hmmmm i feel like i am talking jibberish..AHHHHH
haiz, the only happy thing was, the angelic glance we received..haha chester should noe...PLEASE IT WAS ME!!!!!haha and jp billy bombers got pretty waiters!!!:Pshe only works on weekends i think?i din stalk her its just tt jp is lk 5 mins away from home and i need to buy food for myself right????AND i need a gf, just like the 'angel' we saw today(her bf is one lucky shit if she has one unless she is just one big toot) but well mayb she was looking cos of our disgusting short hair and was thinking in her mind what stupid ass we look like....but i prefer to look on the BRIGHT side=)Luckily my hair is growing, I DIE ALSO DUN WANNA CUT BEFORE red beret presentation...on the way home today i felt like i was the ATWC(attract the wrong crowd) gang and i just not what jie and others always say i am.....please dun ask me wat i meant in this sentence cos i wun entertain u=_=i am just not suited for there, f***k my luck man, its the worst especially when it comes to..........................................all i want now is to get beret, get an 'angel' gf hahah and save more money and pass driving=)))))
tired,sleep for now so tml will be a new day for me to suck life up.....it feels great to be alive yet annoying to face life's daily dosage of reality........even world's richest man's life isn't perfect!!!
04:13
; where did I go wrong?.