8.26.2006
muahahaha, today was a good good day!!!met up with sok hwee, n it was the 1st time in 2 years tt we toked so much la...haha didnt felt weird talking to her, instead walking along sok hwee in jp made me miss all of 4e2...thurs is gonna come, hope i can see them all!then although today oni me n zj go queensway buy shoe, it was a happy trip!haha scare me la he sddnly say wan go home then hang up my fone, zj pls dun play this kinda of game lk u did on fri when u say dun wan go shooting!!!helped him choose a bag , rlly nice he liked it oso i think it suits him well. BUT the bad things had to come when zj n i went to another shop only to dicover tt the same bag at the shop was $9 cheaper den wer zj bought the bag!!den zj abit sian at first, i think the person did it to spike zj!haha but evrything was good for me walk lk 2 hrs finally decided on wat to buy at 1st wanted to buy 1 shoe oni, in the end i bought TWO shoes, wtf i damn extravagant. then also bought another back pack rlly liked it oso=) but i rlly lk the levi's watches!!i oso want to buy! so many things want to buy, such a bad son to my parents hor?
i rlly am blessed, to be able to spend money lk this and have clothes n shoes n a shelter....then i tot of hw my parents sweat for the money, realised i owe them evrything.when i grow up no matter wat, i willl give them the best i can....but i still try to tok to them now n then, cos whenever i throw temper at them, a tot of them dying the nxt day comes up in my brain. so i alwas say srry, cos u rlly dun noe,mayb the things u said tt were so hurting was the last words u said to ur family or people around u.i believe no matter hw bad things are, they will eventually pass away. no matter hw deeply something or someone scarred u, eventually u will come to think all the grudge n hate u have is jus so tiring to keep up with....all the hurt will go away, all bad things will come to an end lk good things, for me i think it it gg towards an end......i have people around me now n family members who are ther for me alwas...life will be better if i study harder now!!!
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my fav nike!!!!lovin it
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my go-to-sch adidas...=)
23:14
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8.23.2006
yo!!finally here to blog! hehe....life is vry hard to adapt now with mr yeo gone!!!i realised there are the good things n also the bad things when mr yeo was around, he allowed us to slack n gave us alot of confidence in our pw. With the new teachers taking over i realised we have been spoilt by mr yeo, only realised our chinese had so many things which were left out and the worst was the pw meeting with Mr ong today....when he asked abt when we handed up our PW things couldnt ans him, den its lk was sian half liao....den go to consultation with him realised tt our project was actually a super blur to me n my members, we couldnt ans alot of the questions brought up to us la. then i think back n realised tt mr yeo used to tell my grp tt once we found a source we can pass PW, its all a fake its all jus but a lie to boost our morale.Felt betrayed in a way does that mean the things n praises he said to us was all but a lie? does tt mean our project was actually a flop? i dunno so confuse now la!!but mr ong is lk a PW pro la, pro lk shit la....he could lk spot all the things tt my grp n i could have never notice in a thousand years. now i gues there is a new life to our project mayb there is still a sliver lining to our cloud.
life is changing, it is good!AND IT IS OSO BAD!!!I WAN TO GO POLY BUT I DUN WAN TO WASTE A YEAR !!!
jc life is a hurdle that those who chose this path mus overcome, JIA YOU MY FELLOW 12J MATES!!!ALL THE BEST FOR THE PROMOS IN 4 WEEKS TIME!!!!!!!!!
22:02
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8.18.2006
today rit...wah 1st time half of the class went on a outing even though it was only playing lan! i gues it was kinda special?
mr yeo is gone le, as in he left our sch to sell duck rice.LOL nobody rlly knows the reason why he quit his job, but i m oni sure he made my chinese lessons memorable. it was the last day today n as normal mr yeo allowed me to slp during lessons, now CT chged to ms ang life is rlllyyy gg to be 'better'. mr yeo hmm.. can say he bliv we shuld learn hw to do things for ourself n not bcos others say so tt is why he nv controlled us lk forcing us to stay awake during chinese or call us go to the $5 barber in sch when our hair was too long.
hw is life gg to go on, hw will my life continue wat will happen next ?
jc life is so full of changes...
mr yeo wherever u are, i want u to noe...tt u have a place in my heart=)
thx for the humour n napping sessions u gave me...T.T i miss him ....
23:39
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8.15.2006
TERRI IS IN HOSPITAL!!!!evryone jus lk 'huh?really arh?ok lo ..." knock knock!!!classmate leh y no one lk concerned?gues our class bond is 'strong'
i asked sher whether wan go visit her le, if she gg then i oso gg ba...i dun wan others to mistake..=_+
tupid ms phang sia threaten us go to her remedial if not mus see her tml to give an explantion!n today at dinner evryone seem quiet is this wat usually happens or mayb~~~its occasionally....shan't say much though
evryone sddnly bcame moody on the mrt trip back home, its there something wrong?evrything is weird recently, it alwas is i gues
22:58
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GRAFITTI I DREW
did they lied? I dunno, but i gues even if they did it is nt wrong on their part. anyway i tink it doesnt matter even if i keep thinking abt it? so let's forget it...sch has been even more hectic recently, evryday we have make up lessons n by the time i reach home i rlly cant bring myself to do anymore work.
in the past it was bowling aft sch n loads of fun, now its jus dinner with frens n home. nowhere esle...wat has my life bcomed??T.T
i gues when i go out to work , it will suck even more...
now i noe why ppl alwas say they rather study then work, arhhhhh!!!!!!
sianzzzzzzzz.......
21:13
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8.13.2006
aww my video frm my fone sucks la.....too bad ba i gues....=(
things chg so quickly!!!mr yeo will be leaving this FRI!!!can't bliv its august alrdy.....and ms ang will be our new ct!!!life will be even mundane!!!!!!ARHHHHHHHH and today rit i rlly see no point in studying econs cos ms phang is jus ULTIMATE boredom!!!i tink she is tone deaf la she lk speak with one tone oni, and she oni read slides nowadays n want us to copy dwn n copy dwn n copy dwn....i dun freaking learn anything loh the whole of 12j econs class was slping la!!!u see hw boring is econs!!!!!!!
today ms leong talk abt the list of things tt the MOE set for jc students to have when we graduate frm jc...but its lk the teachers in sch are doin nothing at all abt it.....moral values responsibility....i dun think so......MOE is jus a flower vase for ppl to see la....
fascinating fascinating!!!new friendship have forged....dunno y i jus feel special seeing it...=) lk shawn n sw 2 guys who seem quiet to many ppl can tok so much to each another.....n zi jie n jw they lk bros or gay partners wateva u call them la....zi jie jus cant bear to see jw spend money....zi jie finds evry single opportunity to treat jw wan wor.....n jw is also a gd fren to him they both can tok alot n laugh alot wan sia.....n ql n tabby are lk sisters nw!!!they have a blog tgt they stick tgt n tabby oni toks to ql alot!!!! n then its smith n zhi lun....its jus out of a sudden, they bcame the best mates in class!!!n they both oso vry good to each other and ppl lk sj arh zhen yang arh enrico arh all seem to engoy smith de company....its wat i think la.....time passed so quickly and now the big 5 has changed its league LOL it became 6....dun tink i nid to emphasis?
so many things happen cannot catch up liao=_+ the promos are comin i studied abit ytday n it was considered the longest period of time i studied since i entered jc....
jc life rlly stressful....many things chged in my life also, jus so many.......its oni pw work n comin home late frm sch.....wer's life ???do we rlly need to mug our ass off for tt degree to make it in life?....its alwas not enuff u noe when u have a degree u need a master, when u have a master u need a doctorate...when u have a doctorate u need to study for another degree. LIFE is ever so demanding, that is why we alwas need to chg, chg to adapt to life!!!tt is why there are inevitable changes.....u cannot stop it but only go with the flow n try to mayb spice up ur own life a little?
as i said i rlly aspire to be a chef, serious!!!!as in a culinary chef or mayb do something no one has done before lk tabby fren who has a diploma in pyrotechnics(designing n making fireworks) when he is only 15 but he goes clubbing n MOS lk frequently....wat am i doin in jc????haiz i am jus scared ,scared i will fail in life if the passion of mine jus cannot help me make a mark.....
most ppl jus wan to make a mark for themselves...isnt it?who wants to end up having no job ?but will our degree rlly get us a career? tts for all of us to find out in 10 or 20 yrs time.....
01:21
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8.12.2006
RECENT HAPPENINGS......
-some ppl de attitude drastically chg
-n discover tt its not ppl around which chg its bcos u get to know them better
-national day jus passed n it seems lk nth to alot of s'poreans
-promos comin still nt studying
-tml wan go see fireworks...
-and i have a new science tutor...cannot help it i jus plain stupid......
1stly rit let's tok abt hw things seem to have chged to me!!!hmm evrything is mundane, sddnly evrything has no purpose! and see here see there now see ppl who used to be good frens quarrel over something....things gotta happen this way huh?!and its not particularly referring to sum1 i m referring to alot of ppl, some dun tok some act lk strangers some are jus normal frens now whereas those unexpected to bcom good frens are now best of frens.....life is chging evry single minute...when u slp u are also chging!!! but to me i wish these changes nv happen....some may thk god tt there are chges in their life, but i am seriously not grateful....alwas wonder can i b a funny person? its lk i cannot seem to make ppl laugh.........T.T but i gues its jus in my genes i m a boring guy who doesnt joke? mayb it is....
oh ya notice wat i said abt its not tt ppl are chging but is bcos u get to know him better.....honestly if u tink u so good n nice to a person n all , but then as u know him more u see his true colours den u sort of say he is a changed person....isnt tt wat happens?i mean lk in some cases rit?anyway i jus hope i could control time, evrybody wants to control time ....i tink my whole class wans to turn back time?mayb so tt we would go bac to the past tell ourselves to study hard n not b in ijc and also be the 3rd class frm the bottom even in ijc!!!
anyway this is the end of my long random blog....tata
01:56
; where did I go wrong?.
8.09.2006
today met up with lester zibi n sotong....went to watch ant bully had abit of fun laming with them....though it was oni a cartoon , it had alot of meaning....one part of the story one of the ant told the boy it was bcos of the differences in the ant coloney tt made the ant coloney strong cos evryone would work tgt for the same purpose....and the author of the book which the movie originated frm compared humans from ants...humans fall apart bcos of their differences and do things for their own gains whereas ants they work tgt for the good of the whole community.......well at least all these was meaningful to me
ITS NATIONAL DAY TODAY!!!!!and since its national day i tot abt our national da performance
then tt day during the national day performance i was lk thinking wah so good all those performers got ppl shouting their names!!!lol u noe oni at times lk this u noe whether u have frens who would not b afraid of ps n scream for u even though u dun rlly noe who was shouting....lol if i was up on stage would i hear my name? gues not hahaha!
19:03
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8.08.2006
Today was the most 'exciting' national day's eve of my life!!!had no plans, frens all got their plans, then vinny & gang all nerdy frens eithier stay at home play games or bball.....honestly the number of times they have been to town can be counted, well as compared to them i am nowhere better.......rlly miss jac & gang...when in sec sch alwas go out aft sch go play bowling all this things, then just one day my words hurt one of the gals den alot alot of thing happen then i was no more frens with them.....i was so sad la.....even though vinny & gang all so nerdy but they were there to lame with me=)(vinny is a guy by the way)...., when things with jac they all got vry bad.....
nw its no different, i think its worst....haiya u noe hor when u tok n nobody lk replies u ??? try imagining tt and u noe hw i feel
i tot somethings wuld turned out good, but afterall its still the same......haiya i gues i m the oni person thinking so much...mayb i m rlly thinking too much........
dear blog readers , a blog is lk a virtual diary wer u pen dwn ur thoughts....IF reading my blog made u have a different opinion on me, i suggest u stop reading it.....jus a friendly re
minder
evrywer i go its pairs of frens i see....but oh so lucky number 21 stops at me
23:31
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8.06.2006
promos are comin, approaching us so fast but i still can't find the heart to study...hwhwhw?
ya i love getting on ur nerves, glad tt my efforts are appreciated...but wait a min since u dun give a damn ?why read my blog? u reading to see if i had any outings with her??? i gues so seeing the fact tt u jus cant keep ur eyes to urself in sch huh?=) of cos life's good for u, lol but dun get the wrong idea frm her u noe? cos i tink u dun hit her mark.....so dun try so hard n make urself suffer....
21:06
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Today we went out to celebrate zi jie's bdae!!!!!!it was me tab shawn n jw....ql n sw had sumthing on so oni left the 4 of us celebrating for zi jie.....zi jie treated us to pepper lunch!!!hw good was tt? along the way so many things had happen, but there was ppl to pick me up....i am grateful=)
it was fun we all ate pepper lunch for the 1st time!!!lol and then i gave zi jie a surprise by making him a chocolate cake!!!no la, joking i bought him a choco cake n we sang him hppy bdae at pepper lunch....then i was a genius la, i forgot we dun have lighter n plate lol....so we did w/o the candles n we use tissue paper to eat the cake....then we went to watch tokyo drift!!the whole day was not bad!!i enjoyed their company...then a a freaking gay had to stand beside me in the toilet, n the damn urinal was lk no cover wan loh ....then i murmured freaking gay before i left the toilet!!!haha wtf sia n the gay was lk a freaking ah beng!!!
aft the show, i wondered hw cool would it b if i knew how to race???imagine evrything was lk initial D where 17teen year old race in the street at nights?woah!!!then sddnly on the way bac tok to tabby abt singaporeans....
it seems as though s'poreans are constrainted by boundaries, and its almost impossible for us to hav dreams.....its obvious enuff rit? it is the modern way of thinking that no matter wat we do we cannot outdo ppl frm the outside world.....lets say soccer, singing and hw can many other more!!! s'poreans live by the idea tt we shuld study get good jobs earn lots of money n die ......it seems so contradicting tt ppl around us keep saying tt as long as u have dreams u will make it one day.....its not true!even though s'pore is safe n evrything, but it seems as though s'poreans are heading for doom.....17teens year olds of today!!!we mus b a new breed of s'pore we mus open the box tt we are trapped in!!!but even though i am saying this i noe its impossible......is lk we s'poreans think of failure before we do anything esle, we r afraid to take a step forward....bcos we r afraid we will fail.....tt is why we study bcos it is instilled by our parents tt studying is the only way u can survive....tt is why we do not dare to give evrything up for our passions in life...r you willing to?r u able to stand up to the fear of failure n move forward?i am not, i gues
01:19
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8.04.2006
u stepped over the line.....since its lk soo obvious ur toking abt me why not jus put my name?why mus lk indirectly come all the way round jus to shoot me, so ma fan n tiring rit? dun wrry u can say all u wan, since u dun have the guts to speak up in front of my face.....its lk wats the point, u wan find trouble frm me u can jus say......why do all this?put as ur nick and write all those things in ur blog....if its not me den ps loh if its me den good loh......
22:35
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5 days pass by le...a week is gg to b over agin n evrything seems to be as mundane as before....
tok to sher n tpst during lunch today, was a nice talk....we talked abt passions of our lives
then as i was toking to them i realised the meaning in life is to live for ur passion!!!only when u scacrifice evrything for something u love, u will live with no regrets
anyway lets skip the passiong thing...tok abt singaporeans spirit agin!!!today rit saw a malay lady on the mrt she lk occupied two seats one for herself one for her BAG!!!!i mean lk if u hate sitting with ppl den dun take the MRT LAH!!!!wtf go get a cab or wat la occupy so many seats for wat? and it has to b a malay tt is y there is racism....-_+
anyway i snapped today.....ya i cant handle things wan i jus act on my feelings.....i took a seat on the mrt, hoping my frens would come over too....none of them came, they even had to persuade each other to sit beside me....then they stopped persuading each other n jus left me alone der while they laugh n talked....i was embaressed tt i had to seat there alone...at 1st i rlly was joking to b angry but later as i tink abt it no one spared a tot , so i snapped ,i jus kept quiet......somehow i alwas felt i promoted silence, whenever i went......
anyway tolerating is not my forte, gues i shant say more..........
17:56
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