5.15.2006
the cake splitted into pieces......and i m jus one of the many pieces .........
evrything is jus gone.............evrybody alwas have the wrong image of me, tt i m not a serious person alwas the active guy trying to make a noise............all bcos of wat i seem to be, is cause of evrything. It took a wrong turn, so desperately trying to be accepted, in the process of trying i accidently further the distance between me n them.....i m nt making a big fuss, they are those i treasure jus lk those frens they treasure in their grp even though my frenship is not requitted.........am i wrong? do ppl say no jus to comfort me
who can come and tell me wat is right and wrong, was i wrong to feel jealous n lonely tt they left me out....i tot aft the camp evybody bonded i tot at the camp the concern i showed smith will b felt by him....i tot evrything was goin alright.......evrything turned out to be jus a wishful thinking of my own. i dun blame people cos if i was another person i wuld say 'why is jessen so drama' i wuld say tt being the person tt i am ....its hard to accept the person tt i am even myself when i am so desperately trying to chg but i can't. evrything is jus wrong wrong wrong.....mayb i shuld jus leave evrything behind
22:53
; where did I go wrong?.