7.23.2006
evrything has been done....tt blog i wrote , it affected me alot n other ppl i guess..... i look back i dunno wat i shuld bliv wat i shuld think anymore, but only to listen to my heart
and my heart tells me to say sorry, sorry to those who was written in my blog and those who read my blog...i gues wat i want to say is sorry for writting tt blog, but i wun delete it cause no matter wat i stand by myself.....mayb someone was rit, i caused all the problems in 12j, i caused it....nw i have jus yet another barrier to overcome....i said i have chg ,i rlly did!! i dunno did others see the chg in me? or mayb i was a jerk all along? i tot jc was a place where i made frens tt wuld walked a long journey with me but 1 by 1 i lost my frens cause of my foolishness...no matter hw hard i tried to hold them back , i wun say they abandon me cause no one did tt to me.......
all i wish was to have the big 5 n noodles n me and the ppl who were der for me as one grp again ...as one whole grp.....mr yeo may be leaving at a time lk this, sometimes i feel bcos mr yeo is der evrything seems alrti,nw he may b leaving do ur noe tt?do ur have feelings?i rlly do love the frens i made in ijc, evryone seriously i am srry for all the problems i have caused.....i saw evryone forget jia wei , sung hyun and sher's bdae i was heart broken cause i have forgotten it too and it was the ppl from other class who celebrated it for sher......will my bdae b lk dis?will evryone forget it?day by day i lost the frens i tried so hard to hold on to, and day by day i got to know ppl whom i was nv close to......i rlly dun wan things to get worse, was it rlly me tt cause so much things? can someone jus bring me the harsh truth ?!!can anyone jus tell me was it my fault, so tt it can end my agony once and for all??? evryday at sch it jus gets harder n harder, i dunno hw i can make the ppl around me smile n accept me or is it jus impossible to accept me once more?......its so tiring as if i was climbing a mountain , cos i alwas try to be evryone's fren ...i rlly need someone someone tt can bring me out of all these rit now.....i wan to overcome all these things tt i have caused, once again i am srry
23:20
; where did I go wrong?.