10.22.2006
wooo!!! the wong li hom concert was F-A-BU-LOUS!!!haha it has been such a long time since i had so much fun today, so i decided to blog at this crazy timing,lol...in the concert tt was this retarded crazy ass bitch who kept raising her mini signboard or wateva u call tt when OBVIOUSLY li hom hasnt even make an entrance....then lk wtf she doin sia?so a guy shout at her say' bu yap zai nong le!!!' then she still kept raising leh!!!so even i shouted at her say " BU YAO ZHAN QI LAI!!!!" she stand twice so i shouted twice...damn hilarous la even bro n sis was laughing with me, other people oso laugh lo....i mean lk if li hom come out liao, u can raise la but lk the concert haven even start u raise for wat....the gal also damn wat de lo, when the guest star come she also raise, DJ playing music she also raise....she mus be a very irritating gal in real life......the dancers there were nice too, inspired me abit to dance too! and in tt concert, u seriously learn how a superstar can affect lives...just one guy who has a talent can make millions around the globe loving him...no wonder the lead singer of U2 is fighting for poverty stricken countries all around the world!! But anyway , wang li hom was shuai and POWER for his singing, was totally gg high in the concert today!!!and its rlly mei nu ru yun arh, so many pretty girls!!!
after tt went to eat supper in geylang wah had alot alot of tim sum arh!den along the way i saw many prostitutes and......seriously i nv knew they were so freaking ugly!!!!!!then along the way home talked about soo many things with kor and sis, hmm though its only times lk this we can sit down and talk to each another about many many meaningful stuff but these moments are precious and we seriously understand each other many more....
kor then explained why he said i took evrything for granted, it was bcos i cared too much about my own problems in school n other stuff i took for granted my family n evrything esle....i took for granted the fact i left my fone at home, then irritating ms loo go call my family...my bro n sis were scared lk shit bcos they knew the problems i have in sch, so a thought of me commiting suicide occurred to them...and i have forgotten how much i meant to them, instead i kept thinking about hw much frens in sch mean to me....i was rlly touched that i teared, this IS the purpose of my existence that is to bring hope n joy to my family...though i do not have frens but i know i have a family which others are jealous of!!!And the talk with my siblings taught my that, we humans always care only about the problems we have ourselves but fail to notice the problems which others have....and if only we would learn to look around us, our problems seem nothing compared to the problems others are facing.Like for me, i seem to forgotten how tough was it for mum to go through the leg operation and still had to go bac to work so quickly....
today, in the concert i felt loved, bcos i was with my bro n sis and i felt so free for the first time this year. Free from thinking of what i should say(which i noe i alwas fail to think the right thing), from thinking about what to do, from worrying about what others would say abt me and from the fear of doin things without people doin it with me, and all this was bcos kor n sis was there, and i knew they would support me =).....i said i dun wish to depend on my family, but the fact is i dun need to depend on them. Because they are there for me 24/7, no matter how bad i am to them, they will be the 1st one to step up for me....mayb this is the luckiest thing tt happen to me, having a family who cares for me...but a gf is still important to me!!:X
Even though i learnt so much i still haven found my goals in life, which is dangerous...I mus start to pioritise(i noe i spelt it wrong sorry)....during this 1 week of OP after finishing it i mus at least be determined of wer i want to go....mus go look for counsellor liao...hey but thinking it in another way i found my aim in life, that is to alwas have goals in life n alwas look things in a brighter way, bcos as long as there is people around, there will alwas be conflicts and hurting problems and no one owes u a living....so we can't ecpect people to alwas give in to us....so TTS MY AIM !!!lol
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; where did I go wrong?.