11.09.2006
I AM bored out!!!i gues i am a freak!i alwas noe when i noe abt something it will rlly hurt, but i jus wan to noe sometimes...u noe? u jus have the urge to noe even though it dun mean anything, =( am i rlly such a bad person? there are lk sooo many places i want to go, and hearing others tok abt gg jus make me feel so bu gan yuan!!! i keep saying nxt year is gonna be better, but i gues its just a form of self - comforting? must be ba, is evrything even on track? it alwas feels lk i am sitting in a train station alone at the middle of the night, everywer i go....
have your ever felt lonely even though u're standing among thousands of people?
but the most surpriseing thing was wq sms me to go to a gathering, i was lk huh? then he said he had msg the date to me but i din receive leh...so i was lk thinking mayb he msged the wrong person le, but i asked him then he said no...sort of felt happy i gues? cos ever since i left hyss, i alwas think abt them, the times we went bowling n stuff those were the times i felt wanted...n there is also a chalet organised by my frens...he rmbered to call me oso,these were surely comforting times. Things do seem mundane and meaningless, but somewer i noe i can find my sense of belonging...
i alwas wonder i did say srry, was i too harsh when i said it? was it necessary for things to end this way?this is not for a gal anyway, just to clarify....ok
let's sum up my jc 1 life
-good memories
-bad experiences
-bad results
-no achievements
-and i lost alot
-learn alot
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18:45
; where did I go wrong?.